to Tell the Truth(tttt)

...As the note says:

Your body is a temple...take care of it.

A simple yet impacting statement. I think its trying to tell me"Get thee Hence" from those gummi bears and reeces peanut butter cups.

Crush Crush Crush

I've been dreaming about Edward. Yes the fictional, stephenie Meyer created, hot, suave, deep and sexy vampire...IIIIIIIII could go on. Okay maybe not so much 'my' imagination's edward but yes Robert's Edward.

Call me a freak!

Whats the dealio? I have no idea...but I find myself thinking about my dream all the day long. Today was the third dream I've had in 7 days. The first two were about how jealous I was how he fell for brunettes and not a hot "blond" like me.(oh yeah, were still in my dream)

In particular he was falling for a brunette friend of mine, Melissa. Sorry Mel if you read this post, I have nothing against you nor do I understand why you were present in my dream...but just feel good about yourself that you were Bella and Edward picked you over me. :0)

In my dream it was such an awful humble feeling to be denied by "Edward, the hot sexy off-limits vampire". I remember having gut dropping feelings from questions like: "whats wrong with Me? - Did I give a bad impression? - how could he not find me attractive? - Am I to easy?( as in opposite of playing hard to get) Too Practical, basic, ordinary.

Ugh, I was so upset and hurt when I had those dreams. It seems to me, I am currently in phase where I wake up and it takes me a few HOURS to come back to reality and to separate myself from the feelings I had in my dreams. Where as an average person wakes up and goes "Geez, what a dream" and gets outta bed like nothing ever happened. Because thats exactly the case!!! Nothing happened! But oh no, not me, I have to carry it with me all day through while sweeping my floors and brushing my teeth and feeding the little misses. I must be going insane here people! ( I say ppl b/c i like to think ppl read my blog, makes me feel cool)

Every morning, it seems like, I would have Misery Business being sung in my head...over and over.

Oh but then the best thing happened last night. I finally!, FINALLY!, caught his attention. He found me intriguing, and sexy(yes, I said it sexy) and was impressed by me. It was thrilling and full of anticipation and excitement. We had so much sexual tension(eeee! i know but its true).

Yes Edward, find "ME" hard to get, find "ME" irresistible, find "ME" darling. Find that I have so much to offer. It was so fulfilling. I don't know how else to describe it. For as short as I have been having these dreams it is as though its been so long that I've felt incapable and un-wanted. And I yearned to be wanted and to be capable of earning his love. This last dream became a dream-within-a-dream come true. Its so odd.

Its time like these I wish I was some brilliant blond fetcher. Always investigating more and achieving higher and new levels of "education" of "knowledge". Not sure how else to put it. But imagine being an inventor and slowly you became a step further and a step further and succeeded everytime. I guess what I am trying to get at is: I wish I could invent a device that could record your dreams, analyze them, describe in common terms (interpret) what it means, and tell me how to go about to fix the deeper issue here. Like my dreams are caused by some emotional, physical, or mental disfunction and then proceed to tell me how to fix it.

Now wouldn't that be amazing?!?!?! Uh, chaw!

Well I guess Im done ranting. I just had to note that for once I had a fulfilling dream and I've been in a pleasing mood all day. Ya know, sometimes I am thankful for dreams. Silly dreams, silly crushes.

Its funny having dreams like these...Sean and I find it so interesting to talk about. Well, at least my hubby doesn't find me a freak. Ppl don't love you and care about you the way husbands do. Gotta love him!

Just my cup of Day

Breath In, Breath out

as I watch the clouds dance about

as if mind and senses wash clear

whilst my fingers ache for a piano

the day teasing me of my lack of one

***

Dear please, don't Shake me awake

Its days like these

I want to cozy up to Little Women

Float, drift, and pause

I feel a temporary release

Of the exile my mind encages itself in

Escape to time of simple life

Its farce, but real in me

So as long as I let it be

*** The skin of my neck shares the cool breeze

Of the wind and wet leaves

Beyond the window down the street

Lay a scattered but giving puddles

Its painted me my perfect portrait

Just my cup of tea

Filled with chocolates, crumpets, & blueberry scones

***

If only , no really, If ONLY

I had a glass jar to capture it all in

Snatch the lid on tight and screw it on til my skin hurts

Sweetly savor for a day not so giving

***

Im a bit to lazy to try to make you understand

To put into words that make sense

But for now, I don't care

Let me blabber and slur

***

I just tap my figures along this black keyboard

And continue to watch the papers on my desk quiver

As i noted earlier, the breeze is welcome in my house

***

And now I must put an end to this...for I wish to enjoy this day

Bid me Farewell

Alternatives please

Okay, so I am not sure how long it takes...but does anybody know how long it takes to acquire a taste???

Ya see, I've had the desire to drink herbal tea since I had read Meg's Blog (post) about tea. Herbal tea has alot of benefits for you but here is how I see it. Its good for me and its another way for me to intake water...which if you didn't know is a task difficult for me to do. For whatever reason I don't care to drink water. Well obviously it takes a toll on ones body if you don't get your water intake. This effect manifest itself in many different ways in me. Besides my doctor says Im near dehydration..

I stopped by Fresh & Easy and picked up this Yogi tea brand...it was either that or strawberry but it just so happens that I was getting a cold. So I figured, eh, why not? It sure does taste awful..but its bearable. And I am hoping that if I drink it everyday I'll acquire a taste for it. Do you think that maybe if I bought a cute tea cup to go with the tea that that would help me to drink it????((((((sigh))))))

Do any of you have any suggestions how to intake water??Besides the obvious answer.

I need some tricks please.

Obession Confession

I've come to this realization a lot(lately) but never actually understood why?

The question at hand is...

Why do I always choose green?

...I wear GREEN...

...I adorn GREEN...

...I eat GREEN...(thats a pistachio in case yr wondering)

...I organize my green with GREEN...

...I tell time with GREEN...

...I communicate with GREEN...

(oh, yes indeedy my phone is green)

Gosh!!! yOu'd think I'd oWn a pAir of gReEn shoes for crying ouT loUd!!!

Hmmm...future purchase in cue

...Maybe my hair should be green...Eeh? eh?

Heckers!, I even Clean with GREEN!

Gimme green nail polish...I'd wear it

:::(Sigh):::

Well, I think its clear as daylight my favorite color is...

GREEN

GREEN

GREEN

Do you have an obsession Confession?

Uh...can't think of what to call this one???

Well heres a whole lot of nothing but I keep putting it off so today is the day. I need to squeeze this in before the next event is written.

So as time ebbs and flows change takes place. A change for me would be a newly found love for Rice Krispies.

I have a bowl nearly every morning. I enjoy it because its low fat, 4 grams of sugar, filling and delicious. I don't add any sugar but some days i'll feel a little adventurous and add some pecan granola. For some reason I just can't stand any other kind of cereal in the mornings...it makes me feel sick and unmotivated. I tried protein shakes in the morning too but those just make it worse. Like i can almost feel it churning in my stomach. Im beginning to fear it may be the milk.

Here is Emmery in her new "Klingon" bib. As long as it works throw fashion out the door.

Here is a result from watching Rachael Ray. Its called "Leftover Crudites" . its great really, after a party usually there are left over veggies from the veggie tray or what not and you have so little time to eat them all. So all you do is combine them all in a dish pour over one cup Chicken Stock, add salt-pepper...add there is more to it but im too lazy...read here. Very very simple and good!

I did have to improvise a little...i didn't have the right cheese so i used colby jack instead. Note to self: to speed up the process stem veggies before baking.

She also did an Apricot-brandy glazed chicken...well, as for the Brandy i just left that out. Aint it beautiful!?

This is my first "perfect" Candy yams. Gorgeous and so good that even emmery kept eating etc.

It was a great meal and it surprised my mister man. Chef Ashley in the House!!!!!!!!!!

2009 and Resolutions

Happy 2009! Now the only thing to worry about is remembering to write 09' ...(sigh) no more 08'. I wonder what 2009 will bring?

Awesome MySpace Comments & Myspace Layouts

Now on to Resolutions. I like this...Elder Joe J. Christensen of the seventy said this in his talk on 4 resolutions: the savior's time here on earth>>>>>these are what he did..." intellectually (in wisdom and knowledge), physically (in stature), socially (in favor with man), and spiritually (in favor with God)." he continues with... "Resolution number one: I resolve to expand my intellectual horizons, to increase in wisdom. resolution number two: I will be resolute in preserving and strengthening my physical health. third major resolution: I resolve to be a truer friend and to become more socially acceptable to people of high standards. and forth [the most favorable] resolution: I will grow spiritually—I will increase in favor with God." quote by Joe Christensen: "I am convinced that if we make and keep resolutions in those four areas, we will have a happier and more successful new year this coming year and every year for the rest of our lives." Read the talk HERE.

To-Do

Oh the joys of a "to do" list...

• Vacuum upstairs
• finish laundry
• write thank yous(work)
• Dinner's Dishes are calling...more like smelling
• A much needed nap from the 12am-4am Emmery wake up call(pooped)
• homework
• Eat something
• Finish crafts
• Glue book together
• L@@k presentable(HA!, no gonna happen)
• stress about what to make for dinner

and the list goes on...may sound measly in comparison to yours but to me its tackling Goliath. Wheres David when I need him?